Tuesday, September 28, 2010

I really blew it this time...

     Suddenly I found myself with a child who doubts the existence of God, because as he put it, "God really doesn't care about us." "If this is His plan, it sucks, and I don't want any part of it."  

     My son, Alex, was having a hard time. He's a senior in high school. He's ready to be done with it. I was doing my best to motivate him when I suggested he find one thing he feels good about and looks forward to each day. He chose football. I said, "Great! Put your hope in football. Know that you have to go to school and get decent grades in order to play football."

     Child motivated... I thought that would be enough for a while. The very next day... in a simple weightlifting class... hamstring torn. Physical therapy started right away, but he's out for minimum three weeks. Senior year, that's a pretty big deal.

     All by myself, I had a few choice words for God.  The hamstring has been an issue since it was first torn 5 years ago. For a natural born athlete that's a real bummer. We've done our part. What could God possibly be thinking taking away the one thing that brings my son joy right now?

    In a flash I realized I had done my son a terrible disservice. God hears us. He just doesn't want us putting our hope in football... or anything other than Him.
     Sometimes when we are hurting... or tired of waiting... it's hard to keep our faith. I thought my faith was stronger than this. The lesson for me is in the advice I give. The lesson for my son is much harder.

     I'm sorry, Alex.
     I'm sorry, God.


  1. Julie Alex is so blessed to have you as a mom. Now what is he doing with his time?
    Cuz Sarah

  2. It's so hard to see our kids struggle. Thankfully the Lord sees both you and your son as His kids. He's there for both of you. And, by the way, it's good for kids to hear their parents own up to a mistake. Big lesson there for the future and his character. You're a wonderful mom.

  3. This Mother's heart hears your Mother's heart loud and clear! Been there, done that....and probably will be there again. There, but for the GRACE of God, go I. Holly McLane

  4. Your honesty with Alex is wonderful. Where would our children be without parents ready and willing to admit mistakes. It is always a parents wish to bear their childs pain and frustration. Your Alex and Maddie have no doubt you would do that without a moments hesitation if you could. Lucky kids, lucky parents. GM